This past weekend

Erica and I got back from out mother/daughter retreat, it was super fun... I know Erica really enjoyed having her mom all to her self. We met at the church friday night at 4:45, packed the church van you can imagine how much packing we had to do with 18 women/girls. I got to know a young girl Tegan on the way up... what a cutie... so Erica met a new friend. we got up to Onomia camp, and right away had dinner waiting for us. sat in front of a big huge in door fire place and ate great food... it's always great when you dont have to cook. we then picked out our rooms, erica and I ended up having to dorm alone, I was a little disappointed, was hoping to get into the crowd... but it was our own falt we were in a rush to get the room we wanted. we should of just waited to see what was left open. I think alot of the girls new each other... so I was happy that we went and got erica to know other girls her age. that night after unpacking we went up to the open room and played games, Bev was in charge of that and she is a really go getter lady so it was alot of exersize games! running around... my legs still hurt today... we all then met in the "living room" and talked about self asteem. and how we are all masterpieces of God... we are fearfully and wonderfully made :) it was great, then we broke out the munchies and s'mores and painted nails and played piano, and talked played skipbo... it was just great fun and ended up going to bed a little after midnight. next morning got up ate great breakfast and has session 2.. role models and friendships.... had open time so me and Erica went and took a walk and sat down by the lake... it was nice, ate lunch then had session 3... what turned out to be a bit emotional. we went to the chapel to worship and do our last bit and one of the mom's made this really pretty candle that was for me and Erica to light when we just felt like supporting each other and praying, then during the weekend we made a really pretty note book journal called a pillow journal. we write in it and send it to the other person by putting it on her pillow, and when she feels like writing in it, she does then sends it to my pillow... I think it's a great idea for those times when we just are not getting along to well, but want each other to know we still love you! so I wrote in a letter to her, and we had to go light then candle and go someplace private to pray and talk about the letter.. well, of course I start blubbering and Erica is looking at me like I am nuts... she still to young to understand, she will when she has kids of her own. I feel I am constantly messing up with my kids... I just want the best for them... and it is so important to me that we all stay close. and at times it seems to be just to much to try and do... especailly when they make you so mad and not do what they are told and when they start smarting off! well, after all that we came back into the chapel sang some more songs then found out one of the ladies has breast cancer so that got all emotional while we prayed for her...
It was awesome weekend, and I defienatly will do it again.
After getting home it was pretty cool to see Rick got a Bobcat and moved a lot of dirt around and flatten out a few spots... so our ice rink is ready to roll again this year...

Crazy day

I started the new little baby today. Chloe. She is adorable. so now I have 2 little babies, and Aiden who is about 5 kids rolled into one, and I am not kidding. today was a busy day, I tend to get stir crazy having no one to talk to all day. I like my computer. I can chat once in a while with some friends or do my blog. which I am sure I will now be able to do alot more of since I can't do much but sit around and watch babies. No more getting laundry done.. or cleaning out cupboards. unless I am having an awesome day with the baby girls. today was tough. tomorrow is me and Erica's big date we will go away to camp Onomia and spend time together. I am excited in a way, but then again I can't stop thinking about the stuff that needs to get done at home. Why is that? I am so tired of putting cleaning and list of things that need to get done infront of more important things.. yet I don't know how to let go of it. if I get behind then what? it's crazy! I have been told by someone this week that I am a perfectionist... I never feel I accomplish much becasue I always have more I want to accomplish. yet, how can I be a perfectionist... wouldn't I do every thing perfect? as far as I can tell, I am anything but... I try but the harder I try the more i see how far behing I am. Any who... I am watching little house on the prarie right now! I love it. I have my kids hooked now too. well, I suppose I have to get daycare kids ready for parents and then make pizza for dinner, then pack up for tomorrow...
that's all I have for now..

I know I should keep up with the blogging, but I find it very diffacult. I abvouisly have something fantastic to share, or I probably would let more time slip by before I blog... I will try and keep my blogging more consistant. BUT my news is, Rick had tried to suprise me and Erica with a night away High School Musical Church event at Camp Onomia Oct. 24-25th. for mother and daughter to get out and go bananas! Focusing on Self Esteem, friendship, role models. I say he tried to suprise us becasue dummy me kept on bothering him about it and I seen him slip the reminder card in his pocket so announced that to Erica, in really thinking he wouldn't do that for us! besides it cost $100.00! it is some what of a suprise becasue it is awfully generous and I thought forsure for ruining the secret he would said forget it! I am very excited for this. A few weeks back I had went to Camp Mt. Olivet with some friends and church ladies. the youngest was 17, but I thought boy I can not wait to start bringing Erica to stuff like this. I know that I am not really good and bringing God into daily conversation with my kids, but this is a way then she will know how important God is. although I do want to work more on our family be God centered.

we just got done celebrating with my family the little girls birthdays. they got Polly Pockets from most people, I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart! I felt bad for a while there, telling everyone to get polly pockets... wonder what the girls thought opening present to present, more polly pockets... but they LOVE THEM, and ma ma loves them more! Michlyn I haven't seen all day today, besides for breakfast and lunch! Last night, it was really weird, it was night time, and Mike was down stairs BY HER SELF! playing polly pockets! she wasn't even scared! Mike and Boo need to work on playing together but they have had some good moments which usually end in a big cat fight becasue someone is not sharing.

Last night we sat down for a family meeting. I have been so upset with the kids lately. Yesterday most of the day, I sat on the computer making charts, and expectations list, and check off sheets, and rules... DARN IT! I have had it... no more nice mom! and I am lucky becasue Rick is backing me up on this. It's all normal stuff that kids should be doing daily! I just have to fight my kids every inch of the way with everything and everything... I have had it. You want something from me? you want to have friends over, or jump on the trampoline, or play with play station, play with game boy, go to a friends, use my computer, eat snacks, eat hot lunch at school... then you will do what you are told! Go to bed on time, brush your teeth, shower every other day, do home work. Nicholas will "forget" everyday if he could that he has home work. so now I have a check of sheet that he comes home and sits right at the table and completes before he can do anything. I am anxious to see how this turns out and I am determined to not let it take the back seat... look where it's gotten me... NO MORE! I AM WOMAN HEAR ME ROAR! I say take the back seat because I am a marshmello. I hate taking away fun things from my kids. I hate it. like tonight, I am going to the dollar store, I know nicholas would love to come... he will cry when I have to say no to him... but this morning, I asked him if he would please mail me something before getting on the bus and he casually says... Um No, it's to far to walk... trust me it's no fun he says! so I ignore him thinking he must be kidding me! Few min. later I say Nichoals time to go out now, O.k.! But I aint taking that mail out! and out the door he went. I wanted to catch him and spank his behind... but thought... ooh he will pay tonight! now I feel bad! but I let him do this, what will it be 2 years from now! how about when he is a teenager?? I can not let these kids run our lifes!

O.k. on to other things. Next week I have a new baby starting her name is Chloe. I will have 3 full time kids, and 1 part time. will help on the house payment. Winter is coming up and that always seems be a hard time with the cash flow. I have a rule when ever a new baby starts I get my carpets cleaned! seems like a good excuse... that is what I am looking forward to this weekend... because of MEA weekend, Erica does not have a baseket ball game, I believe Nicholash has hockey though... and I think sunday we are having the Fyten family over for brunch.

O.k. better get back to work... Nap time is almost over! Rick has finished painting the girls room and putting boarder up. Today I cleaned it up and rearaanged furniture... Our house is finally getting put together to look like a real comfy home!