Wednesday, February 25, 2009

LOVE

Love is Patient
Be completely humble and gentle;be patient,bearing with one another in love. - Ephesians 4:2

From the 40 Day love Dare Book
Love works. It is life's most powerful motivator and has far greater depth and meaning than most people realize. It always does what is best for others and can empower us to face the greatest of problems. We are born with a lifelong thirst for love. Our hearts desperately need it like our lungs need oxygen. Love changes our motivation for living. Relationships become meaningful!

Lord - Help me to have patients for my own children and the children I am in contact daily and my husband! May the love you have for me, shine thru and lavish on my family and Friends.

Here we go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now these three remain:
Faith, Hope, and Love.
But the greatest of these is LOVE.
1 Corinthians 13;13

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Hello

Not very often do I have a nice quiet night, so I thought I would send a note to update what has been going on... Rick had taken the two older kids to see the Elk River Elks Hockey team. that leaves me and the two little ones home... just got done giving baths, and now they are playing puppies - pretending to be dogs, and I am catching up on every ones blog. Love to see what you all have been up to...

I was pretty shocked and disappointed when I decided to start thinking about lent TODAY, today I googled to see when it starts...I have never participated in lent before, but I had a big dream this year, I have so much that I need to give up that I was gonna do a big one and really put my heart into it! I was gonna pray about it, ponder it for days, do some research on it and see what direction God points me in.. I wanted to make a big deal about this, really put the time into so I wasn't setting my self up for failure! HELLO IT STARTS TOMORROW! so all day I had my underwear in a bundle trying to figure out what God wanted me to do.

Out of them all, I figured the one thing i struggled with for the longest is what I was gonna do!
For years now, I believe I have done parenting my way. I always say I want God to be the foundation of my parenting, of my life, in my heart I want him to be the center of my existence. I don't think I have set a very good example, does my life reflect that? Do my kids see that? I surely don't think I am raising them or equipping them with what it's gonna take to be a successful, caring, loving, god fearing - (in a good way) person in life. When I am angry I scream and sometimes say demeaning things, and use sarcasm on a regular bases, I threaten and threaten and never follow thru with my threat, I have made promises and sometimes break them, Alot of times I take the easy way out let them get there way because I didn't want to have to deal with it. I make rules and hand out consequences that don't last or never happen... I am tired of tired, run over and terrorized. I have no one to blame but myself... Most of all I am scared to death that I am hurting them in the long run and setting us up for a disastrous family in the future! The best way to teach these kids about life is to live it well, be an example.
So there you have it.. that's what I am doing for lent! that sounds silly I know.. isn't that just common sense? All I know is I have tried this and I have tried that, and maybe if I do it this way, and that.. I know I will make chart and we will go by that, I will make a clip bored to mark off all your does.. I am done with it all. I am handing it all over to God... I am going to pray like never before to ask for his guidance in raising these kids and I know I will not be asking for his guidance this once, I will be doing this several probably a hundred times a day!

I love my kids so why am I letting them get away with murder? when they said it will take a village to raise one kid, how many villages is it gonna take to raise my 4!!! I have a lot on my plate and I can't do it alone anymore. From now on I am going to the big guy for something as little as can I have choc. before dinner, because evidently I don't have the balls to stand up for what is right heck it isn't even the balls it's the patience, the strength... I am so dang tired... but as i can see it doesn't get easier... it's gonna get harder! and harder! So move over Nanny 911! My kids don't have a chance with God on my side!

If this note makes my kids sound like bad kids they most certainly are not! This is all about me and my shortcomings.. Hey there kids... the learn what they live!

Pray for me! I will need it!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Good Morning sunshine






I woke up this morning with this hanging on my treadmill. I heard MOM LOOK AT ME! Brooke my little gymnast. She also can stand on one foot and hold her other foot up to her head, and she says Mom look at me! I say wow! and she says can you do this, and I say NO, and she says why cause your fat? NICE! kids are just way to honest. Really should she be talking? little boodabelly!



Nothing much new here.. just the whole family trying to recover from a real icky couple weeks of just being sick... Me and Mike with pneumonia, Brooke with a nasty cold, and Rick too! Can't wait until we all start feeling good!



Last weekend besides just not feeling the greatest, was an absolute blast scrapbooking at the lodge with mom, lisa and Angie. Only way it could have been a little better is if I had my two other sisters with us. I have a year until the next, hopefully I can talk them into it!



Stacy has gotten me on this kick of MOTO "makeovertakeover" we pick one area of our house that needs a good clean up/reorganizing/toss/giveaway items - we'll take before and after pictures - so far I have gotten the girls room cleaned up, gone thru.. The big kitchen pantry closet, I have been waiting to do that one forever but have procrastinated, finally got it d0ne and now hopefully I can keep it that way for a while. Have to think of my next project which will be hard because I have so much that needs to have a moto done!



tonight was a good night: Erica is off sleeping at her friends, Rick took Nicholas and Brooke to Nicholas' hockey game (they won) during that time Michlyn and I cleaned up the house, lit candles, took a bath, and played some games of Uno. She was so excited for this... a date she calls it. As we were cleaning up I said to her "after this we will take a bath and play some games" she said all kinds of games? like what games? I said well let's play UNO! She was so excited that she said ooh good then can we play DOs (spanish #2) I said, I am not sure I know that game, she was so embarrassed and said OOH never mind.. poor little ding bat got so excited to hang out and play games with mom that she wasn't thinking straight. it was cute... maybe you just had to be there... After the family came home, we ate our long awaited valentine treat... took 6 hours to make and bake our delicious choc. mess. all kinds of choc stuff simmering in a crockpot for 6 hours! it was GOOD! kinda like a cakey,brownie,pudding choc. chunk slop - dry in some areas wet and gooey in others... spread over a pile of ice cream YUM! Thanks mom for the recipe!



For Valentines Rick and I got the kids Pillows! and big choc. kiss on top. I wanted to get the kids something useful besides just candy... and as I was cleaning the girls room, I noticed how all the kids pillows are about as flat as a piece of bread. That's because when ever we buy new pillows the kids get our old ones.. I thought it was a brilliant idea.. and evidently Nichoals thought so too.. when I brought them up to get there treat, he laid on the pillow and was holding the kiss and said this is the best valentine ever! here is a pict.:

Alright it's 10:11 and I am beat from day of cleaning so I am going to bed... good night all!




Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Sundays Super bowl Party was very fun, we were invited over to Brian and Lindseys, we ended up going over there for a couple hours before the actual football game, Nicholas had a hockey game at 1:00 so after that we went to the Budahns.. It was fun to visit and eat some good snacks! we even played the Wi... her folks got into it too.. so it was alot of fun just sitting around and talking and laughing at the kids. other then that not a whole lot going on, super excited for this coming weekend.. our weekend with the girls! mom,Lisa and Angie going to scrap book and have some fun with a bunch of other gals at the milacs hunting lodge!! I am hoping to catch up on all kids albums.. I was hoping to even get in Haily's album so I will bring that one along as well, I sure am Looking forward to just getting away for a couple days... I hate saying that, because I know Rick reads my blog and he takes it so personal... So honey, no I don't hate you guys, and just can't wait to split... it's a girl thing :) or should I say scrapbooking thing.. once you start it's an addiction :)
I am usually not up this late on the computer, do most of my bloggin and computer use during the day.. but decided to put my foot down ONCE AGAIN! and get these kids sleeping in their own beds... so far so good! now I suppose I will get it done for a couple days, then leave and come back to do it all over again! GGGRRR... but anyway that is why I am up still, trying to keep awake to keep a watchful eye out. I usually like to be tucked away in bed snuggled up tight with a book.
Hockey will now start slowing down.. Brooke in a few weeks will be done with gymnastics.. then Every single night will be open! I don't know what it is... I love my kids being involved in something, but also love so much to have open nights! makes me feel free!
I guess I don' thave much to write. just trying to keep awake... gonna go check on some kids...
sleep well.